When it clicks, it pours!

So i have a friend of mine who wants to write a script with me.  totally cool except i don't know the first thing about scripts, let alone funny scripts which is the kind of script he wants me to help write.  

i decided to brush up on research by watching a specific show in the vein of what he wants to write.  so i went ahead and borrowed said tv show from my other friend (who has all the seasons) and proceeded a mini marathon yesterday.  my hope was that i'd get some source of inspiration.

on another note i must explain that i am taking improv classes.  it's a bonus on resumes and though i was part of an improv troupe a long time ago i figured some formal training would be of benefit to me.  last week's class sent me for a spin.  i was really lost and had no idea what i was doing and i did feel discouraged, like i wasn't getting it.

well lo and behold like zeus doing a lightning dance i was watching episodes and suddenly all the jargon and all the vocab and exercises that i had been doing in class started to show themselves in the tv show.  i found myself time and time again making sense of my class through episode after episode.  the trick isn't to be funny, it's to milk the "funny."  doesn't make any sense, i know but it does to me.  so the rest of the night till the early morning was spent watching episodes and breaking them down.  well... yesterday i also went to see INDIANA JONES: RAIDERS OF THE LOST ARK!!!  It's downright my favorite movie.

what i've been doing recently is journaling what i hope for the following day.  that's it.  nothing more nothing less.  and i've found it helps me focus.  i cannot anticipate how i'm going to feel, but i can ask the powers that be to hear me out for the next 24 hours.  i think that's reasonable.  and honestly i've felt a lot saner and happier doing it.  dare i say i'm onto something.  and if not, it had a good run ;)

but the point of the initial ramble was that persistence and trust in my own ability paid of tenfold.  i've had a long struggle with trusting myself.  it's held me back on success and held me back on my talent.  it's not that fear is our worst enemy, it's acting upon that fear.  there is a lot of scary stuff going on in the world.  but as Wonder Womz does, when times get tough, stick to your cuffs and trust in your own sense of self.  for me half the battle is finding out who that self really is.  but i'm winning.  i'm learning.  i'm growing and i'm succeeding.  and that makes all the difference.