See it, be it.

So simple and yet so hard to accomplish.  One thing I like about my rehearsals is that my director is very sage-like in advice giving.  Though I am starting this realization to be WW incarnate I have been on a self transformation since May.  As you can tell progress has been to put it delicately, slow. I mean snail's pace.  But one thing that my director mentioned was this: we are never still; we either digress or progress.  And yes there have been hiccups in my progress, but I truly feel that all my efforts have been in a forward direction.  That to me is certainly a positive.

One thing I still struggle with is self confidence.  Certain situations I do see that confidence.  Certain tasks, certain situations.  But others, I feel the potential is there but that I'll fail the end result.  I censor myself for fear of failing. But how do I know?  How can I really understand if I failed or not if I haven't followed through the motions.  Like Yoda said, "do or do not, there is no try."

So I need to take responsibility for my actions and also feel entitlement to all my choices.  We are not perfect beings, if we were meant to be perfect we'd all end up the same.  Wouldn't be a bad situation if we all ended up like Angelina Jolie, though.  But maybe that's just me...

I am entitled to every thought that goes through my head and every choice and step that I make, whether wrong or right.  And I need to understand that I will sometimes make the wrong decision.  But as we are all transient beings, I can either regress or progress.  And in those moments where the result was a bad one, I will progress, moving forward, acknowledging and learning and becoming a better me.  And that is all I can be.  I cannot be Ms. Jolie and let's be real, I cannot be Wonder Woman.  But I can be the best Wonder Woman I am.  And that's what counts.  So this is where I start to take inventory of what qualities my Wonder Woman self has.  Since it's late I'll post tomorrow.  And that will be my place to start.